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wahh.. today office no supervisor.. den come out problem sia.. the staff all complaining that the email system very slow.. then i call the vendor and they tell me very lame thing.. they say is becos alot of people accessing it, then very slow.. if like tat then all the staff no need to work le ar.. haha.. den i call the supervisor, the supervisor told me he will call the vendor to ask them do something.. haix.. lunch time rainny day.. need to take umbrella so troublesome.. juz came bak from chalet ytd sia.. hmm the chalet as usual play majong and gamble overnite.. not much things can do.. haix.. den cheeky super active sia.. dunno hw come suddenly so active.. after all , its last chalet le.. so quite ok ba.. tonite going gym.. muz excercise more. if not i cant exempt 3 month of army.. haha..
19th may 2007
3rd month together le. met her at yck mrt today.. den many things to take for chalet sia.. got majong, my lagguge, otah, satay.. all heavy heavy one.. haha after tat go check in le den we off to escape theme park.. yea.. cos got 4 free ticket so i went wid my dear dear, xy and hy.. super hot day loh.. then the ghost house funny sia.. the most shiok place cos got the air con inside.. haha..
den after tat i play the roll ball one.. wanted to win a teddy bear for her.. but 2 tries oso cant win sia.. sad sad.. den throw coins oso no win.. used 6 dollar with no wins.. sob sob.. after that we went for zhu chao.. haha.. order many dishes.. eat until very full.. =D after tat sent cy home and went bak chalet and overnite majong session.. lol
gtg buaixx
LiviNg iN helL WifouT uU.//* 12:19 AM
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yoyoyo..
Mother day yesterday.. I didnt do much for mom.. actually wanted to buy zhu chao.. but ended up i woke up late and mom olready cooked dinner.. go to my frien hse to ton overnite... den nxt day 5.30pm then wake up sia.. hard core.. den i tinking of buying crab home to eat.. but ended up the crab is expensive.. den i plan to buy cake home.. but i see the cake 25 dollar for half kg.. i tink give more money she will be more happy ba.. went to watch spiderman movie last thursday.. then last friday tuition wid her.. den saturday my friend treat dinner.. he smart sia.. 1 dinner celebrate mother + his bday.. ahha and somemore not he give money.. not bad la.. alot of food ordered but managed to finish all up... super full sia.. after that go ton.. den sunday do nth.. rot at home.. quarrel with her.. den play game wif friends.. today bak to office so sian... kana forced to do work.. sian sian.. today going gym wif cy at 7.30pm.. hope not too tired ba.. sooooo sleepy.. muz pass napfa end of this month sia... den can go in late 1 month and come out early 2 months.. sounds quite shoik.. haha.. training hard liao.. hope can pass it ba.. hmm wonder why i quarrel wif her sia.. juz over a small matter nia.. but i overdo it le.. she go out wid her friends nia.. den i over react and purposely tell her i go play dota to make her angry.. dunno why i do it sia.. so childish.. maybe i juz cant fully trust her ba.. afraid that she will go bak to her ex again..
though she say she wun.. but dunno somehow my senses tell me to be prepared to be sad again.. maybe this is wad they called the yin ying.. memories keep refreshing my mind, fear and sadness is wad i feel.. dunno when i can overcome this thing sia. I told myself not to tink too much liao. but still cannot sia.. maybe i need to completely let her go once to recover? or maybe i use dota to make me forget things.. think i gone evil liao.. haha. a bit siao siao le..
LiviNg iN helL WifouT uU.//* 7:26 PM
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lol.. today = bad day.. quarrel quarrel quarrel.. me & her everytime got problem.. i everytime huai yi her liking another guy.. and keep making her feel tat i dun trust her.. and making her everytime sad sia.. i tink i not a good stead ba.. or maybe i not suitable for her? i oso dunno.. this morning keep messaging her tings to hurt her heart.. saying tings to make her leave me.. haix.. i such a idiot sia.. i even ask her to go to another guy and leave me.. can someone give me a punch to wake me up?? haha I oso dunno wad i was doing.. If someday she really leave me, i tink i deserve it sia.. but i tink i wun regret.. cos i hurting her too much liao.. i oso dun wish to see her sad.. if she happy with other guy, why not i dont let go. maybe is i too jealous liao.. jealous until dulan and tired.. dunno hw much tears she shattered for me liao.. i still do these things to her.. I want to restrict her , ask her dun sms the guy.. but whats the point.. restrict her action can restrict her mind of wanting to sms the guy ma?? its the mindset tat i wan to restrict and not her action.. she can dun sms the guy, but the mind is tinking of the guy whats the point..
lol.. had been moody this morning.. I told her tat i wun care about her liao.. she can do wadever she wans.. even if she wanted to go to another guy side.. i wun care.. i am so harsh to her.. feel bad but dun feel sad.. dunno who i am liao.. dunno why i can be so no heart.. dunno wad i really wanted .. really dunno sia.......
Moody Y.K.™ =S
LiviNg iN helL WifouT uU.//* 7:28 PM
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yoo...
today rainy day.. my phone alarm didnt manage to wake me up but i kana wake up by a cat meowing.. cos rainy day sleep very hard to wake up one.. then got one cat outside my hse keep meowing for around 20 mins.. meow until i dulan go out see wad happen.. then i saw 1 small kitten outside my hse, drenched and shivering.. then i see outside me hse looking at it.. it ran to me and keep crawling around me..i can feel the fur wet wet one.. i tink it hungry and cold ba.. then i let it crawl here crawl there, then i lure it to my neighbour hse and when it nt looking, i go bak into my hse.. then it crawl to the metal door and wanted to come in.. his head squessh in the small gap on the door and keep on meowing and struggling to come in.. wahh i wan to let it come in sia.. but my mother sure wun allow one..haixx.. after a while it give up and go away liao.. sob sob.. the kitten very cute and innocent sia.. haix..... strange day... I go make coffee after i reach office, then i put in coffee powder and cold water sia.. then need to pour away and remake again.. lol.. very silly.. haix.. whole day viewing friendster.. feel very guilty earning free money. LOL.. and they paying me 8+ dollar per hr to view friendster.. hahaha .. i very surprise tat today i found out some things.. i all the while tot tat my friend put the nick she love linette is tat she got a boyfriend.. but to my surprise, linette is a gal.. and den i realise that linette is my friend.. haha so all the while she is loving a girl!! hmm i tink got problem with their mind.. why would a girl love another girl?? Really i tink something is very wrong.. haha.. sian sian.. going to view more friendster liao.. tata =DD
Y.K.
LiviNg iN helL WifouT uU.//* 8:23 PM
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